It says it all

I'm standing
I'm waiting
I'm falling more in love with you
every time I find myself here
and what I feel for you
it can't be contained
and how I long for you to come
I want to get carried away by you

and everything I want is everything you are
everything I am is yours
it's yours and yours alone
everything I want you are

I've got nothing to lose except myself
I can do without cause I'll just get in your way
so here I am I know it's not a lot
but all of it is yours
and by letting go I felt so much more

everything I want is everything you are
everything I am is yours
it's yours and yours alone
everything I want is everything you are
and everything I am is yours
it's yours and yours alone
it's yours and yours alone
it's yours and yours alone
it's yours and yours alone

I am standing
I am waiting
I'm following
with hopes of
getting closer
I'd do anything
I am running
not sure where I'm going
and going as fast as I can
and I'm trusting
that you'll lead me
and carry me the rest of the way

everything I want is everything you are
everything I am is yours
it's yours and yours alone
everything I want is everything you are
and everything I am is yours
it's yours and yours alone
it's yours and yours alone
it's yours and yours alone
it's yours and yours alone
yours and yours alone

everything I want is everything you are
everything I am is yours
it's yours and yours

p/s: you know who you are..





"I'll wait for you"

It felt like you're always here..

I'm getting sentimental over you,
god tell me what's happening.

Where my morning miss you,
and my evening seeks you..

Life

> there's nothing much to say, but I've been wondering of : 1. Why am i still single? 2. Am I happy being single? 3. Or maybe I don't know how to love girls properly anymore?

It is random though. But I wish I could solve it all. Most importantly, I miss hanging out with my close friends, especially.

I miss hanging out with my neighbors at Rimba.

I MISS ALL THE FUNS WE HAD TOGETHER..


As we get older, my close friends, my new friends, my best friend, any friend. I wish our friendship never ends.


I wish to be with a "girl" who loves me like her own family and treat my friends like her own friends and stuff. I didn't mean to be selfish here or controlling her life or what, IT IS an effort for both sides to be equal. We may argue or what, but we also can solve it smoothly; not blaming each other till death. It is a turn off when they wish and promise but it's a fake.

Baby, you've seen my world inside and out,
but you didn't even bother to feel inside me.

Baby, I love you full of my heart,
but it's nothing to you.

Baby, I beg you not to leave,
but you did it.

Baby, I may be a jealousy type,
but then you don't now why.

Baby, you need to live in your own way,
It is not call an effort for both side.

Baby, I've got nothing much anymore,
so, happy shall you be.



p/s : it's not i hate girls. Hoping someday you guys change for a better way for your future guy. CHEERS

(i got no idea what am i saying)

Does it matter to you?

> was great. in certain. well ya, almost 3 to 4 months haven't seen my ex-classmates. it's like, it doesn't change at all. all of us, are still the same. crazy, loud, assert and hyper. been spending my time so so so much with the guys that i use to hang out and Najihah for the fact, Hadi's girlfriend.

here's the big part. walky-walky around there. and accidentally saw Azilah standing near a shop. well, for me it's very big, as in, it is important to me so much. when i said 'mana yg lain?' i was like, i'm standing infront of a new girl that i haven't met. my heart beats stronger and i went blank and she left.

i know, i'm wasting your time on this small deal of essay though. i just need to express my feelings too kan? at least here might be good but not all.

for you,Az, i love you still.

Mistake to memories

> a 10 minutes read of my mistakes in a relationship within 9 months. she is Azilah Mohamed, my only and only one that i love in deeply in my heart. i care about her very very much and yet,it is just so different falling in love with her. i never play, linger nor ignore or even not care about her. all i have been through is a feeling that no other girl could give, to keep my promise not to hurt her, treat her as my only only one. unsuccessful.

this is my mistake, all i have done, not all. i control her so badly 'till she tears apart and yet, i just can't tell myself how stupid i am. and some of my promise had been broken. ... ... ...

the fact, between Azilah (sayang) and i. i do, really love her so much and wanna change my things up and make things better too. 9 months, it is very meaningful livin' that 9 months with you Azilah. i'm keeping myself stand straight but no, i still can't. all i have to change is my attitude that causing you to hurt. my heart, still remain yours and ever. all my promises to you, always be in my hand and in your heart for you to remember.

p/s i love you so much. this could be our 1st picture taken together at Belalong. 9th,August 2008