My word~

> yeah, school term is almost over. work, work, work. that's all.

here's the thing, i just finished my phone call with this girl. well, yeah, i miss her so much. and it ended like, emm, she fell asleep i guess. and the most beautiful part is when i ... yeah, you get what i mean. but to those who doesn't, just let it be that way=p

all my homeworks? emm, i haven't started a thing. but i have a trust on myself that i would finish it in an outstanding night. which is a bad habit to be practice. but i work things out as i plan. hmm, i've been thinking of having my time not fully on my studies which means not that i stop studying. which i need a confidence in being a leader as i'll get a leadership certificate.

*am i talking crap? yes, obviously you think i'm crazy or something. i'm just, sort of, excited, i guess. its been months i haven't called a girl. now, ya, i'm so happy and i always love you someone!!

Does it matter to you?

> was great. in certain. well ya, almost 3 to 4 months haven't seen my ex-classmates. it's like, it doesn't change at all. all of us, are still the same. crazy, loud, assert and hyper. been spending my time so so so much with the guys that i use to hang out and Najihah for the fact, Hadi's girlfriend.

here's the big part. walky-walky around there. and accidentally saw Azilah standing near a shop. well, for me it's very big, as in, it is important to me so much. when i said 'mana yg lain?' i was like, i'm standing infront of a new girl that i haven't met. my heart beats stronger and i went blank and she left.

i know, i'm wasting your time on this small deal of essay though. i just need to express my feelings too kan? at least here might be good but not all.

for you,Az, i love you still.

Live or die is not our choice

> saying these doesn't mean we should commit suicide nor heavenly cracked. life maybe unfair. but no, life always be fair.

keeping my heads up and heart strong requires lot of things, saying, love, care, respect, enthusiast, willing etc. i'm living my life in hatred and regrets. never felt this way before but ya, we should face it though.

to be honest, i'm losing myself up, out of hopes and paths. i've said alot of things but didn't done it very well. now is the time to change things a bit, make things more better.

my point is, i'm sorry to those who felt like i'm a troublemaker and a heart-breaker. i'm not prefect too though and do all of you guys out there. i wanted to change things up too. and i do require some help especially to those who really committed to any relationship. yet, i'm really sorry sayang. i love you, and i'm empty without your presence.

p/s i hope you guys could catch up what i've written because it's late. i can't sleep too. to sayang, i love you so much.